Favorite Matthew Crawley Moments Per-episode: episode 7 (series 1)
-“Do you love me enough to spend your life with me?”
You can hear his voice almost breaking, because this love means so much to him! *__* There are things Mary isn’t able to explain to Matthew and that makes him so confused! Poor darling!
The thing that has ALWAYS killed me in this scene is Matthew’s “You were sure”. Because there’s no doubt in his mind - that implies to me Mary had given him a definite indication she’d been going to accept, she’d let him know she WAS sure of her answer… and then for poor Matthew, the only thing that’s changed is his prospects, and all of a sudden she isn’t sure any more.
Kind of related, his question is never “Do you love me?”, but “Do you love me enough” - which again, just makes it THAT much more painful. He knows she loves him, he knows it. Just… not enough. And that’s almost worse. :(
Except that she knows that she loves him a lot, but she can’t tell him why she’s not giving an answer because she thinks that he’d hate her forever. The poor things. :(
I had never thought about it, but the ENOUGH point is a brilliant deduction. Clearly, between ep6 and ep7 Mary must’ve given him reason to believe her answer would’ve been yes and that she DID love him. He knows, which is worse because in his eyes it means Mary would purposely throw him over because of money and not for a lack of love - it’s more painful to him because it shows Mary’s faulty, pragmatic judgment. Although, to be quite honest, I understood Mary. She did want him, she did love him, and there was that lie between them (and she couldn’t bear his reaction, could she?) plus…it is a huge choice. To go from the daughter of an Earl to the wife of a country solicitor. Sometimes love is not enough; she’s used to a certain lifestyle, could she afford to lose it? On the long run, would she resent him for it? Financial problems have put a strain on more than one marriage. What if she made both of them miserable because she was feeling frustrated? It’s something you take into consideration, marriage is a loooooong business. But could she tell all this to Matthew? Matthew who sees everything in black and white - but life is in all kinds of shades of gray. So I don’t know. Love them both - you’ll be alright!
Can we also take a moment to appreciate Matthew’s GLORIOUS hair in this GIF set? And eyes? His eyes are so icy in this, the lightest blue/gray, almost white. It’s scary and vampiry and sexy as hell. I would’ve said YES YES YES NOW TAKE ME HERE UNDER THIS TREE AND LET’S MAKE BABIES MY SEXY VAMPIRE WITH THE HEART OF GOLD.
I don’t think however the money was the biggest issue in here. It added to the confusion, but I think her secret was always the biggest factor of this decision.
This aesthetics of this scene… SO PRETTY.